Now What?

It is not surprising that life becomes dull or uninspiring when we are left wondering what happened and why me, why us? I keep thinking about what can I do to make things be ok again? I appear to be ok most of the time, even crack a dad joke but when driving alone, safe inside, everything loosens and then breaks open. I am safe from my own self judgement and become vulnerable to my emotions. I cry.

You are brave to show up each day, one at a time. You deserve credit for keeping others and your own well being a priority as it was before. This is the tough one for me, since I believed I was in control of our well being. I worked hard to make sure everyone was safe. It was not really up to me. Ok. Now What?

My dear friend who reads this, who endures the loss of something beyond their greatest hope. Know that you are not alone and that there are many beings both seen and unseen who know your mind and your heart and your soul. All we have is a single moment that adds up into a morning and then afternoon and then night. A gift of one day at a time. For me, that is the answer to "now what". To find peace in right now. Pain is part of my right now too. But I have the car ride. Listen to the music. I am not alone. There is much love for all of us. I love you.